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2011-07-23T22:41:00.001+08:00

#nowplaying - Roly Poly

Time flies, it's Week 13 ahead!
I remembered i last blogged during Week 6-7.
How can this semester passes even faster than the previous?
Of course, i'm still thankful for being w this class! :)

Ain't good in my academic result for UT1. :(
UT2 - unknown & insecure.
UT3 - *long sigh*

Tired of so many things but still holding on to th laughter,
because my class has so many awesome people that made my day in school.
It's like 'wow, Serene's been going to school daily'.

Yet did my practical and i'm still freaking out, hmm.
Lucky scanning was re-scheduled, i know i'm a coward, thanks.
Okay, whatever. I'm beat. Mentally.

2011-07-03T19:19:00.001+08:00

Too busy & stress to keep thing up, but i still must look happy. (:
I'm good enough to be breathe, think and speak.

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親愛的，我們都儍過。
爲對方付出金錢，付出思念，付出愛，付出等待，
有一天對方狠心將妳拋棄。
新鮮感蒸發了，
妳再也沒有東西是他想要的了。

能這樣對妳的男人，他已不愛妳，
拋棄妳因為妳是他尋歡的跘腳石，
找理只因他要洗脫內疚。

不要挽留，不要回頭。
別以為沒有他便一無所有，妳的尊嚴還在！

A scar is always a scar.
無論如何修補，受傷點永遠無法完美如故。

所以愛人要慎選，
待人要慎思，
做人要慎言，
助人要慎行。

人心如豆腐，傷人就像把沙灑在豆腐上，
怎可能把豆腐上的沙剔除而不留痕跡？

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愛妳的男人不會忍心耽誤妳的幸福，
他會努力讓妳過好日子，不會讓妳傷心，憂慮。

愛你的女人不會忍心當你是櫃員提款機，
她會用溫柔崇拜你，
明白你的自由，
不忍用冷水澆熄你的自信。

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男人使賤，女人犯賤。
許多女人寧願選擇被壞男人傷害也不願和好男人談戀愛。
爛桃花都是自已種的，要怪便怪自已。

當然，使賤不是男人的專利。
女人狠心時的傷害力可以攪碎男人的心。

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XOXO,

If you ever comes back;

2011-06-23T21:17:00.000+08:00

#nowplaying - Naturally

Running a high fever currently, i've popped 2 high fever pills already.
I hope the fever will go down by tomorrow morning,
i need to go school for UT1 okay.

Well, laptop's hard disk problem, AGAIN.
Lucky my laptop is under warranty until 2013. :)
But it's irritating that all my bookmarks are gone, and the need of backing up all my files. I'm practically using thumbdrive and save everything.

Hopefully my laptop is good for tomorrow, no break down please!!!
I've got so many things on hand that i need to accomplish & remember,
i'm really tired, i hardly sleeps well.
The only time i slept well was a small nap on the floor for 30mins, today.

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Secretly & truthfully:

Sometimes, no matter how you tell yourself it's fine,
you'll realise it's not and you still have that little selfishness of hope.
Hope of getting what you want, even the impossible.
Because, nobody taught you not to dream for impossible, they only tell you impossible is nothing, yet it mean everything.

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See, this is why i hate being sick.
Everything revolves around me seems so against me.
Maybe i should re-post soon for happier post. :)

Xoxo,

You just need to wait.

2011-06-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

"How can you have bliss when you don't love yourself first?"

Woah! I can't believe how this week passes so fast,
seriously i've barely rest. I know i'm a lazybum but i'm actually not fully appreciating & enjoying that fact :(
Can school delay another week for us?

IIP took up our holidays and it's only 1.5 weeks,
deducting all those days, it's not a holiday at all.
UT1 will continue immediately and i haven't studied a single one.

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Okay, forget about complaining.
1) WELCOME BACK AISHAH & PEIJUN!
It's very fast that days passes just like tht but i'm positive they did enjoyed themselves despite having jelly legs already.
It'll be fun to join such trip despite all those tough trainings.
Can't wait for them to share their stories in class! :)

Before i forgot, here are some stuff for you.
See, i didn't forget you during my busy moment in local okay!

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Another thing~
Happy 21st Birthday to Baby J!
I'm sincerely sorry tht i can't attend your buffet party!
But Aishah & Peijun will crawl there behalf of me like how i did the booklet behalf of them! Hehehe! :)

I would say i've spent at least 3days in doing everything for Baby J.
One day for 2 trips down(separate into 2 days okay) to get the ingredients for the pudding.
One day for 2 tries including the real pudding for Baby J, still ask her she prefer what flavors first okay! *proud*
One day with 2 attempts to finish up the entire booklet for Baby J, it's messy but i can't help it cause i'm having a bad headache when i started doing. So i don't know is my head got problem, or the book alignment got problem or my cutting got problem.
But at least i've did it right :)
Last day for bringing the stuff down specially to woodlands, and saw her wearing formal. HAHAHHAHA CUTE OR WHAT! k, whatever. -_-

The worse disappointment is the lychee pudding tht i put fruits inside.
Mango pudding was perfectly good except my bro complaining not sweet enough (but finished it up anyway). It got into perfect stable shape within 4hr.
Lychee pudding doesn't luh, i put in freezer the top freeze, i put below, then it got tad watery.
Then i decided to put in freezer with the cover on, and forgot to bring out.
So i gave a FULLY FROZEN LYCHEE JELLY this morning to her.
Sooooooooo glad she likes it, i know she'll be most probably drinking the lychee pudding. -_-

BUT STILL HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN A FEW HOURS TIME.
HOPE YOU GOT SABO TOMORROW, JUST A TINY WEENY BIT LAH K! ^.^
I think i will set alarm just in case i fall aslp so i can wish you happy birthday!

The pudding i did, my mum still say 'do for your boyf isit if not must do yourself'.

(I like this photo, cause... GOT PUDDING!)

(I just think my writing not bad ley :P)

Baby J, soft copy nahhhhh!

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Lastly, last to update and i need my air con badly.
The weather is making me popping pills for headache, fuck you! Tsk.

Okay here it is!
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(LIKE THOSE CHAIN EMAIL LIKE THT)

FINALLY, collected my Diploma Certificate!

Eh, don't play play hor, though private is easy but also not as easy.
So clever you go take lah, plus i didn't even study hor!
This certificate makes me even more satisified than taking my 'O' level certificate luh, who's gonna treat me?!?!

At least this certificate comfort me, i got to be honest, i feel so down lately.
Not because i'm a loser in relationship or craving for relationship lah,
i'm not despo nor desperate seriously.
It's because my friends whom i SHOULD be in the same batch of graduating had graduated, while i'm still in Year 2.
I'm sorry but it fucking hurts me so badly, it kills my self esteem, so if you think i'm seriously anti-social or whatever. It can't be blame, try stepping into such situation.

So back to point, my facebook has been surfacing so many graduation photos from my batch of people since April/May. *play emo song, click*
I'm definitely happy for them, seeing their smiles on the photos shows alot of meaning. The process of 3years are complaints but when you really graduate, it feels like a accomplishment.
But part of me feel heart aches tht i can't be one of them, unable to be a proud daughter wearing the robe and holding the certificate book smiling to the camera w them next to me. It fucking hurts, hurt that i disappoint them but not myself.
God, why am i so emotional. I think this has been surpressing too long, i act as if this is nothing to me but it's not, AT ALL. Feeling teary already.

OKAY STOP!

(Blurry, but it's okay (: Planning to laminate it when school reopens!)

Actually i'm surprise i could score B+ ~ C when i didn't really study.
Don't expect like A's from me lah, never study + never attend classes dillgently ley.

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Of course, ending post w pictures (:

(I wanna learn to tie this! Seriously!)

*waves* BYE!

My fav sign w PJ! *Principal handsign*
P/S: I need i should blog more often if not everytime whole chuck.

Real-istic

2011-06-04T22:26:00.001+08:00

Old picture of mine, proposely post this one de! Hehe! (Only Peijun knows why!)

Can't help to be sleepy, did lots of clearing today.
But didn't manage to clear my study table, clearing them for my bro.
He needs it for his studying area!
Gonna get it done by tomorrow morning(when i wake up) before heading to Grammy's house! :)

Holidays here, but it doesn't feels like holiday!
Still considering between 7th & 10th, which one to go for IIP.
Promise myself tht i'm gonna study for the remaining UTs from monday onwards.
Must do it must do it! *determine*

Didn't feel like blogging today but tomorrow 2 of my lovelies will be leaving for Mount K, when i'm still sleeping probably.
I honestly can't help to slp whenever i can cause i'm easily tired.
Body cycle hasn't been good since years ago, that's why.

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One of the lovelies flew off this morning already!
Please be safe at Taiwan & be safe back to Singapore alright!
We cannot laugh without you (indian man added in convo)

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Another two lovelies who are leaving early morning tomorrow too,
please be safe to and fro alright!
Enjoy your trip and think nothing more than the fun for the trip.
Mentally engagement is important! :)

While i'm in Singapore missing you guys, i'll be looking forward to all of you in school!
& no worries, i'm gonna do up Baby J's stuff soon.
Wednesday till now, i haven't touch it -.-

LOVE YOU ALL MANY MANY!

Lazy upload pictures liao.
Xoxo, #forevernolife S.

Truth; as it be.

2011-05-28T16:37:00.000+08:00

Read these from some site, find it meaningful (;

1.
別用儍等來証明自己的愛無比高尚,
用等待延續心碎只會更悲更傷。
若要等，就給自己一個時限，
給自己一些尊重，
少點期待。

2.
女人多喝茶水也不要亂噴口水;
女人噴香水也不要潑男人冷水;
女人柔情似水也不要淪為禍水;
女人勤煲湯水也不要濫擠淚水.

3.
如果不再相信愛情是因為抱著過去的情傷不放,
因為看到別人的哀傷而害怕,
那麼你已為戀愛結了紮.

4.
如果訴苦不能解決問題,
不如把嘴唇閉緊.
平心思考如何尋找出口,
如何把危機變轉機.

如果藉口只會令自已更顯無力,
何必費心自欺欺人,
自取其辱讓人家看不起?

5.
我沉默,不代表我允許你為所欲為.
我沒要求,不代表我对你滿意.
我原諒,不代表我給你特許証繼續無限放肆.

我微笑,不代表我無知.
我聆聽,不代表我相信你.
我真誠,不代表我會甘心做奴隸.

我大方,不代表便宜應份贈予你.
我不拆穿,只因你不值得我動氣.
我疏遠,因為我要保護自己.
我暗示,因為我要你挖出你的良心; 如果你还有的話.

New start, again.

2011-05-27T22:34:00.002+08:00

So, well, i'm back to Blogger.
I think i'm still used to Blogger, i don't like having journal w interactions.
Ever thought of Tumblr, but aye, it's okay.
I can always take my fav pictures from there :)

Not in the right mind of blogging seriously,
can't imagine how tired i am.
And i'm gonna have another week of school instead of 3days.
Waking up every morning just to be aware that it's school.

But on positive thought, it ain't so bad; really.
I've got good companies in class everyday,
fun, laughter, encouragement; real friends.
Real friends that never fail to be honest w you,
real friends that never would you mind sharing anything w them.
Be thankful, cause times like that might never last forever.

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True enough, being single can be an option, can be good.
But sometimes, you still need someone who's not your friends to listen to your grumbles.
Some grumbles are only meant for the certain person.
But well, i feel good now though (;
I've seen many being in love but unhappy, why?

This year made a lot of different new startings for me.
Especially my course, so many first time and it's awfully fun.
Pulau Ubin, Bukit Timah, Sungei Buloh, Abseiling.
Who would ever thought Serene had these participation?
Old friends heard about it, and said: Seriously?! You?!

Hmmmmm, unexpected.
Not willingly but obliging to try whatever that i can,
even if it's not within my comfort zone.

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Expect more, give more, listen more. Disappointment? Equivalent.

How am i gonna be in school one day w/o them!

Baby J, keep calling me siao early morning. -_-

I HAVEN'T UPLOAD IN FACEBOOK! HAHA!
SNEAKPEEK OKAYYYYY.
Week 6 passes like a flash w them, when it used to be a struggle for me even for a week.
Thank you.